First Entry into the Blogosphere!

I have so many thoughts and surf the Internet so often, I thought it was time to get my own blog. This should be interesting...

First off, why am I anxious? Well, I've always been an anxious kinda gal (my mom has several anecdotes of my toddler woes), it's in my nature somehow. And, I don't think that we've paid too much attention to those of us who've been "anxious," ANGRY, yes, but anxious? And are these emotions mutually exclusive? Hmmmm...

For example, I'm anxious about being a single, educated woman in my 30s (but ANGRY that I should be anxious about this in the first place - way to go, black nationalistic compulsory heterosexuality!!). I'm anxious about what I see as the rise in racism (post-Hurricane Katrina politics, racial profiling, the appalling response to the whole Duke Lacrosse scandal) but ANGRY that most people would rather act like racism is so-long-ago-in-the-past. (Are you kidding me?)

I'm anxious about the degrading sexualized images of women, and black women in particular, everywhere (but ANGRY that we would still be "shocked and horrified" upon seeing Janet Jackson's boob at the Superbowl, even though everyone seemed to have disregarded the fact that Justin Timberlake stripped her naked - yet she's still struggling for a platinum album and HE gets Grammy nominations and chart-topping hits while copying the dance moves of her big brother Michael!).

So, see? Anxiety interlaced with Anger. But my biggest issue: I'm anxious about the global state of inequality and social oppression occurring in these perpetual warfare, fear-of-terrorism, let's-ignore-genocide-while-we-tune-into-AmericanIdol times, but also ANGRY when people think I shouldn't be anxious at all!

I'm anxious about being creative and artistic, and possibly compromising my writing skills by entering the blogosphere! (but ANGRY that publishing my writing on a blog COULD compromise my reputation - really angry that traditional publishing outlets and other media are putting up such a resistance to the Internet).

How this "blog diary" unfolds as I delve into my and other people's issues, we shall see.